Prison in Mind

What causes me pain, causes you the same
Causing me to pause, and explain
I love you and want to
Do what is right, but then again, I 
Beckon the fight
Back to the bottle, back to the needle
Back to attacking what I love most
Equals to me who I see as being in 
A bind, a prisoner in decision, a 
Prison in mind
If I could break these chains
And change the world
I could take this feeling
Of pain and worthless earth
Which is bringing me to say
I am sorry for making you always
Pray, for me, for us, for the trust
For the shame, for the worthless
Feeling of blame which became
A way for someone like me
To see all the unworthy worry I free when 
The feeling I have deters me from wrong
Referring me to a love where I belong
Making the choice which forces a
Different man to voice enriching
Deterrence that I can connect to 
Who I really am
And if my current situation understands
The future is sure and the forgiveness
Stands to make a change
In my smile
From feeling the pain 
To feeling worthwhile